Saturday, August 04, 2007
how come i have a boyfren lik don have ,, how come i have a family lik don have . ?
y my life is so different from others . ?
chinese theres this saying ,,
in a family theres no hatred .
having a father with such temper and daughters with fcuking attitude .
are all this found in other family . ?
beating and whacking is lik monthly routine in my family ,, haas =)
almost everyone said im being love deeply by my mother father and boyfriend .
but y cant i feel tht love . ?
SO WHAT IS THE THING THT CAUSE OUR FAMILY TO BE THIS WAY . ?
our problem . ?
parents problem . ?
stress . ?
i noe i do have a wonderful family ,, new clothes ,, new handphone ,, restaurant ..
things tht we want r always given by my parents .
but y cant we tlk things out everytime . ?
y must we use force . ?
is tht what we cann use to solve things out . ?
SO CONFUSING . !!
i dont understand myself ,,
i dont understand my family ..
will it be great if i could grow up faster .
a better mind cept a better thinking .
im not siao la . . !!!
JUS DONT GET IT . Y MY FFAMILY IS LIK THT . !!
all we noe is to nod our head , cry . !
what else we noe . ?
but words cant express how we feel bout this family .
very tiring . very ARRGGHHHHH . . !!!
i dono what im thinking and REALLY DONO how to express myself . !!
will it be better if im alone or is it better with frens ard .
HOME is e place where evryone cann relax themselve and really enjoy their time with their family .
y is my family so different .
we do feel happy some times ,, jogging together ..
Have dinner together .
YA .! this is what we want everytime .
but why ?? things always turn out the other way ?
feel so unsecure in this house .
i noe it will be better to tlk things out with someone i trust .
but how ?
I DONO HOW TO DESCRIBE the feeling i have . .
having him is a pleasure ,, this . i NOE . !
but y sometimes i feel things are not right .
i wanted this way but it turn out another way .
hes perfect to me . i love the way he is .
i love him alot . really .. no lies .
sometimes i feel so lost and his there for me . yeap . so happy ..
but sometimes he's not there .
i wish i cld have him with me everytime .
but i dono how to express myself .
sometimes ,, this is how i think .. but he's thinking is the other way .
last time i felt tht studies r more impt .. relationship otherwise .
but now ,,
i jus wann a simplier life .
ya i noe .. studies are still impt now .
but i wish i cld have more time with him ..
but he seems to care more on his studies .
is this true . ?
I DONO LA .. BUT THTS how i feel .
another thing is ,, FRENS ARE SO IMPT TO HIM =)
arrrggghhhhhh..... !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SO HEADACHE ,, SO TIRED ,, HATE THIS FEELING TO APPEAR EVERYTIME . ...................
EVERYTHING SEEMS CONFUSING. !!
relationship . haiz
family . haiz
studies . haiz
i wann a loving family please . . . !!!!
you & me @ 7:36 PMy my life is so different from others . ?
chinese theres this saying ,,
in a family theres no hatred .
having a father with such temper and daughters with fcuking attitude .
are all this found in other family . ?
beating and whacking is lik monthly routine in my family ,, haas =)
almost everyone said im being love deeply by my mother father and boyfriend .
but y cant i feel tht love . ?
SO WHAT IS THE THING THT CAUSE OUR FAMILY TO BE THIS WAY . ?
our problem . ?
parents problem . ?
stress . ?
i noe i do have a wonderful family ,, new clothes ,, new handphone ,, restaurant ..
things tht we want r always given by my parents .
but y cant we tlk things out everytime . ?
y must we use force . ?
is tht what we cann use to solve things out . ?
SO CONFUSING . !!
i dont understand myself ,,
i dont understand my family ..
will it be great if i could grow up faster .
a better mind cept a better thinking .
im not siao la . . !!!
JUS DONT GET IT . Y MY FFAMILY IS LIK THT . !!
all we noe is to nod our head , cry . !
what else we noe . ?
but words cant express how we feel bout this family .
very tiring . very ARRGGHHHHH . . !!!
i dono what im thinking and REALLY DONO how to express myself . !!
will it be better if im alone or is it better with frens ard .
HOME is e place where evryone cann relax themselve and really enjoy their time with their family .
y is my family so different .
we do feel happy some times ,, jogging together ..
Have dinner together .
YA .! this is what we want everytime .
but why ?? things always turn out the other way ?
feel so unsecure in this house .
i noe it will be better to tlk things out with someone i trust .
but how ?
I DONO HOW TO DESCRIBE the feeling i have . .
having him is a pleasure ,, this . i NOE . !
but y sometimes i feel things are not right .
i wanted this way but it turn out another way .
hes perfect to me . i love the way he is .
i love him alot . really .. no lies .
sometimes i feel so lost and his there for me . yeap . so happy ..
but sometimes he's not there .
i wish i cld have him with me everytime .
but i dono how to express myself .
sometimes ,, this is how i think .. but he's thinking is the other way .
last time i felt tht studies r more impt .. relationship otherwise .
but now ,,
i jus wann a simplier life .
ya i noe .. studies are still impt now .
but i wish i cld have more time with him ..
but he seems to care more on his studies .
is this true . ?
I DONO LA .. BUT THTS how i feel .
another thing is ,, FRENS ARE SO IMPT TO HIM =)
arrrggghhhhhh..... !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SO HEADACHE ,, SO TIRED ,, HATE THIS FEELING TO APPEAR EVERYTIME . ...................
EVERYTHING SEEMS CONFUSING. !!
relationship . haiz
family . haiz
studies . haiz
i wann a loving family please . . . !!!!